Okay so Friday the 5th I had my first doctors appointment it went okay I didnt really like my doctor thinking about switiching... On the 1st of november I am going for my first ultrasound I am so excited.... I am getting even more excited hopefully we will be on our own very soon we really need to be on our own.... I think it will do us some good we wont fight as much. When we lived on our own we never faught and I loved it. So everyone pray for me please!!!

Okay so Andrew and I had a huge fight today and of course it left me in tears because I am an emotional wreck lately and it sucks. He flipped out on me because I woke him up this morning. He wouldnt wake up just by me saying Andrew so I started to shake him and maby I could have been a little less annoying but I wasnt... He told me he was sick of this which I took it as he was sick of me and he keeps asuring me that that's not what he ment... Everything upsets me lately and he know's it but he has just been so mean and uncaring lately it is driving me crazy... He says he is happy that we are having a baby but he doesnt show it by his attitude he just has a I don't care attitude. He says mean stuff to me all the time knowing I am emotional. I am just very frusterated with him right now.

Baby Love

Okay so I found out that I am pregnant. I am excited very excited and so is Andrew. Hopefully we will be getting a place of our own very soon I have a good feeling about it. My expected due date is May 12 2008 ♥


Well here is a song that I think fits the ocassion very well

So it's Tuesday at 12:05 in the afternoon and I just called about a job hopefully they call me back! I really need a new job I really want to move by Feb at the latest. So I am trying really hard to save and they are giving Andrew hours like crazy so that is exciting. On a very bright note I am doing very well lately. Not even money wise I am just feeling great lately and I love this feeling it took me a long time to get to this point and belive me I dont ever want to go back! Im sure I will have my sad days (who doesnt) but I like the feeling of not being depressed all the time it is a great feeling. I couldnt have got this far if it werent for people who care abut me. Thank you lol I know this is a very cheesey update but I am just a cheesey person so deal with it lol

Well here is a video taking back sunday- cute without the E

Great song

Makeup Smeared Eyes

Left your t-shirt in my room, still smells of you And the picture you hung on the door lay smashed, picture perfect.
Explains now, clearly nothing left but a memory We only made out you never kissed me that's how I learned to hold back all feeling

Pre Chorus: Wait, please don't go, I won't stay. All these words on replay. I'm ok, Its alright, good to know that your fine.

Chorus: Pretending everything is right, to make it better. I'll hide my make up smeared eyes, to show that I tried.

Verse 2: Some how you have managed to get under my skin, more than anyone ever did. And if every whole makes a scar and every scar marks its place then I will never live freely without your trace.
And it'll never be fair, I wrote my songs for you and you never even cared.
So Ill forget you, Ill wish your t-shirt, kill the pillow and cut you out of pictures Pre Chorus:

Wait, please don't go, I won't stay. All these words on replay. I'm ok, Its alright, good to know that your fine.

Chorus: Pretending everything is right, to make it better. I'll hide my make up smeared eyes...

this drama sat shot gun
my eyes rained like autumn
only the glove box knows
how the story goes

now that this bandage is broken and
the cuts left in open
ill tell you just one thing
this wasn't worth the sting

Okay well the time is 10:02 Am I am sleepy as no other I didnt sleep real well last night but that is besides the pointe. Andrew and I are going to be saving up hard core we went to have our own place by Feb. at the latest so everyone pray for us and wish us luck, I think if we really buckle down we can do it! Also I am dieting now I have lost about 5 lbs since Sat. and today is Thur. so I think I am doing pretty good what about you? Well that is it for today I will be leaving music videos of my favorite artists everyday.. Dont worry It will be a new song lol



♥

Amanda